September 30, 2015

feeling safe and root chakra work...

I'm going to just say it... I haven't been feeling safe lately.

My anxiety is very related to feeling unsafe, and my anxiety has been amped up a lot this year.

Some family stuff is hitting some deep-rooted places, so that's part of it.

Our financial situation can affect my feelings of safety and security, so that's an issue.

And health stuff (which is my biggest anxiety trigger that most anxiety-reducing techniques I've learned and used over the years haven't helped much, or helped enough) has been a problem. I've mentioned a few things about my health here and there, but I haven't shared the full extent of what's going on.

I won't get into all the details but here's some of what's happening... The fall I took in January 2014 left residual problems for me. I injured my foot a few months ago and it hasn't fully healed - and yesterday I re-aggravated it and today I'm back in a walking cast. And vertigo - which has been a periodic visitor in my life since 1998 - has been with me for weeks... and a recent doc appointment revealed that the initial diagnosis for the equilibrium problems might not be what's going on after all (or not the only thing). So I've got more doctors, and more appointments, ahead. In the meantime, I walk with a cane at times. I stay at home more than usual, even when I'd like to go out and be around people... or go for a walk.

There's a lot of uncertainty in my life right now about several things, some of them major.

And I've been feeling quite alone (even though i know I'm not really alone). Calls with friends don't always happen, I tend to withdraw when I'm not feeling well and if others don't reach out then no connection is made (and yes, I do realize it's on me to reach out and let friends know what's going on and tell them it would be helpful to have some extra support or more frequent touching-base-even-briefly times), plus there's that thing I mentioned above about staying at home even when I'd like to go out.

All of this contributes to feeling unsafe.

In addition to traditional medical things, alternative health things, and abundant self-care and calming techniques, I'm doing some focused work with my root chakra.

The root chakra is related to physical survival, feeling safe, being rooted and grounded, being connected to this existence on Mama Earth.

I'm giving my other chakras attention too, but I'm doing extra focusing on my root chakra because of my feelings of not being safe... and my anxiety... and the distrust I'm feeling for my physical body that makes me want to not be fully embodied, which means my energy can stay too much in-my-head or my upper chakras... and my feelings of not being fully rooted and grounded (not only can anxiety lead to those feelings, but so can the vertigo and my feelings of being off-balance and literally feeling like I'm not rooted).

Here are some of the thing I'm doing for root chakra work...

I'm a crystal-lovin' woman, so of course my stone helpers are with me.

Red jasper, smokey quartz, garnet, black tourmaline, black obsidian, snowflake obsidian, black onyx, red tigerseye, jet... these (and others) are helpful stones and crystals for the root chakra.

I diffuse essential oils such as cedarwood, frankincense, vetiver, pine, patchouli - these are some of the oils that are grounding or help boost the energy of the root chakra.

I've been doing some root-chakra-specific meditations. This one on youtube with Tibetan singing bowls has become one of my new favorites.

the direct link is here:

Eating grounding foods and doing grounding visualizations also help the root chakra.

Another thing I've been doing is spending more time with my etsy shop. Making things helps ground me. And crafting and painting are activities I can pick up or put down depending on how I'm feeling physically.

I've also been making time to intentionally do things that help me with centering. Self-care is big on the list. So is connecting with joy as much as possible.

But I'll admit it's often difficult lately.

At times like this, though, self-care and joy and creativity and connection are probably even more important than ever.

And then there's that root chakra again, and its relationship to physical needs, survival, feeling safe, security, stability, being grounded, being rooted, being embodied, the reality of this earthly life.

The root chakra is the I AM chakra.

 So I focus extra time on my root chakra, I give it extra energy, I work to balance it and cleanse it and clear it and strengthen it.

And I repeat to myself some root chakra mantras...

I am here.

I am safe.

I am.

September 8, 2015


As I've mentioned, it seems like my anxiety amped up over the summer. It turns out painting was the main thing that helped me center and calm... but my experience was a reminder that I hadn't been doing some of the helpful things I know to do, and I'd let some things fall to the side a bit.

So I've been consciously, intentionally, connecting more (and more often) to things that help me with calming and centering.

This means, for me, continuing to paint and work with crystals and diffuse essential oils in the air... but bringing these things into my life even more.

It means I've been pulling out markers and one of my mandala coloring books, letting myself enjoy the calming and meditative act of coloring.

It means that I've returned to practicing centering prayer every day. I was introduced to centering prayer at a workshop at my church in 1998 and it immediately became part of my life, something that centers me, calms me, helps with my anxiety, and also deepens my spiritual relationship.

I had been practicing various forms of meditation off-and-on since 1982 (off-and-on, not consistently - I go through cycles of practicing consistently... and then not-consistently) and centering prayer was a welcome addition to my life. As with other forms of meditation, over the years I've been through cycles of consistently and not-consistently spending time in centering prayer, and it had been a while. Recently I felt a strong pull to get back to it. And so I did, and I am. Already I'm noticing a positive difference.

Bringing calming and centering things into my life more also means that I'm consciously connecting more to joy.

It means being even more aware to spend time cuddling and playing with our sweet kitty.

And it means laughing more. Being more intentional about finding light-hearted moments with my husband, laughing on the phone with friends, and watching shows that make me chuckle and giggle-snort.

There are other things I'm doing but these are a few. If you're looking for more calming and centering in your own life,  maybe something I've shared will spark some things for you to try.

What helps you with centering? How can you bring those things into your life more?

It is so worth it to know... and to follow your knowing.