April 21, 2015

death and rebirth...

Last year, when going through the priestess process with Lisa Michaels, one of the things necessary to do before emerging as a priestess was to go through a shamanic death and rebirth.

This year I've been in her high priestess program, and recently I went through another shamanic death and rebirth... this time, being reborn into New Earth with the frequency of high priestess.

This week I'll go through an emergence ceremony - emerging as a high priestess.

What does this mean for me?

I'm changed. Again.

Parts of me have died. Again.

Part of me has been reborn. Again.

We are always changing, evolving, marked by time and experiences as we go through life.

There are many deaths - some big, some small, some internal within us, some with things / situations / people.

The shift for me into being a priestess was a change I felt inside. The same has been happening during these months of being a high priestess initiate. A greater sense of personal power. A sovereignty within myself in a way I didn't know sovereignty until relatively recently in my life. Being able to hold a higher and cleaner frequency of energy even more than I used to be able to do. Being able to hold space (holding space is very much a part of what a priestess does) in an even deeper and more extensive way... holding space for groups, holding space for others, holding space for an individual or a situation, and holding space for myself.

All of this is happening on a deep level, inside of me, energetically and spiritually.

But it carries over and impacts everything for me.

Almost two weeks ago, I hit a very difficult period (in the midst of what has been a very difficult 2-plus years) with several hard things happening at once. By the end of last week something within me shifted. In some ways it was subtle. In other ways it was extreme.

Do I believe it's connected to these past two years of priestessing, of connecting to the priestess energy and archetype within, to shedding what doesn't fit with that energy, to going through my shamanic death and rebirth into high priestess?

Yes. My priestess process isn't the only reason - I believe several things intertwine and work together to bring me to the place I find myself now - but I firmly believe it's connected.

Do I believe this will be the last shift or evolution or iteration I experience? No, not unless my life ends now. I believe we're always in process. We're always continuing along the spiral.

Will this shift impact my work?

Oh, yes. It already has. And more is to come.


April 19, 2015

reminders of heart loves...

For a few different reasons, much of this month so far has been difficult. Hugely difficult with some tough stuff going on.

But something interesting has happened in the midst of the upset and worry and fear and tough stuff...

I've been reminded of what my heart loves.

These aren't new revelations for me. I tend to think that sometimes we are reminded again and again, whether over the years or over the months, and sometimes we re-remember at a new or deeper level, and we get reminders.

If you've been reading my blog or following me for long, my reminders probably won't come as new revelations for you either.

I've been reminded of how much I love my calico kitty girl.

And writing - fiction and nonfiction.

And doing intuitive readings.

And doing energy work.

And painting.

I've been reminded of the presence and love and grace of God even when I sometimes feel I've lost that connection (but I never truly have, because the connection is always always always there, no matter how it feels to me).

I've been reminded of love.

And I've been reminded that sometimes heart love means letting go.

I have a renewed commitment to staying connected to my heart loves. I have a renewed commitment to myself, and to what I feel I'm here to offer.

Whatever you love, I hope you'll find ways to stay connected to it. I hope you'll keep it close.

But I also believe that sometimes you'll be reminded - all over again, or in a new way or a deeper way - of your heart loves. Like a new waking up. A little jolt of oh yes I love that! 

And with the reminders can come gratitude. So much gratitude. Because where would we be without those heart loves?

April 7, 2015

joy noticings...

This month I'm participating in Susannah Conway's April Love 2015 - and something I've realized is that the brief daily prompts help me notice.

And so far, they've helped me notice joy.

It can be in a small way, a little something, but the noticing of joy is there for me. The connection to joy is made even for a moment... and usually the moment stretches into longer as I take the photo, crop and resize and post the photo, and see prompt-pictures posted by others.

Truly, it can be a little thing.

But sometimes, it's the little things that make a difference.

And the ripples for me extend longer and deeper as I notice joy and make that connection.

Instagram has become one of my main sharing spaces - I'm posting my photos for the April Love prompts there, and I also post photos there that don't make it to facebook or other places. You can find me on instagram here - I'd love to connect.

What ways can you notice joy today? Even if it seems like something small, the joy can linger and ripple...


April 5, 2015

beauty as well as bread...

This quote serves as a reminder to me.
"Everybody needs beauty as well as bread, places to play in and pray in, where nature may heal and cheer and give strength to body and soul alike."  ~John Muir

Is it something you sometimes need to remember too?